Friday, September 30, 2011

30 Days of Truth: Day 4

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for...

Something I have to forgive someone for...well, this one isn't terribly hard for me. Usually I like to think of myself as a pretty mellow, easy going kind of gal. I don't usually hold grudges. I may be angry or upset for a little while, but eventually everything blows over and I'm back to normal. In general, its kind of hard for me to come up with someone or something that I am completely unforgiving about, but....there is this one thing that I just can't seem to let go of...

Let's rewind a bit...I have one particular friend. We have been friends for years! Seriously...years. I don't remember NOT knowing this person. We literally grew up together. This specific friend was one of my best friends for a long time, and he was always my very best guy friend. We were never romantic or anything like that, ever, we were always just friends. And we had a great friendship. 

Well, we grew up. His family moved away, but we still kept in touch and remained great friends, even though he lived a few hours away. Our relationship stayed pretty solid. We spoke often, discussed important decisions and events going on in each other's lives. Then, eventually, the day came when I got a phone call and found out he was getting married. 

I was happy for him. I met the girl, she seemed nice enough. She was cute, giggly, and completely girly. She was great for him as far as I was concerned. So, they get married, I attend the wedding, get them a pretty amazing wedding gift, and try to be a great friend. 

Well, as has happened with other guy friends I have had, when a romantic relationship begins, my platonic relationship with my friend gets put on the back burner, and rightfully so. I'm not disputing that. The priority in any marriage should be the spouse. So, my communication with my friend began to fizzle. We were still friends, still spoke occasionally, but it was different.

Then, the next year, his father died. It was sudden and unexpected. So, the moment I find out, I call my friend to offer my condolences, my support, and anything else that he or his family may need. However, when I call, She answers the phone. As soon as she hears my voice and I ask to speak to my friend, I hear her say to him..."It's HER...Do you really want to talk to HER?" Thankfully enough, I hear my friend say "Of course I do." So, we speak. A few days later, my family attends the funeral. And nothing else really happens. 

Well, several months later, I get a phone call from my mother asking if I had spoken to this friend recently. I tell her no, that our conversations had become fewer and farther between since his marriage. Then, my mother tells me that's why she is calling...he is getting  divorce. Turns out...he was letting her handle all the financial responsibilities of the household and she had spent EVERYTHING and had decided to leave. Seriously, she had spent every dime he had to his name, including anything he received after the death of his father. 

Even though my friendship never really got back to the way it was...I still cannot forgive this girl for what she did to my friend. I cannot let this go. It's not even my grudge to hold...but I take my friends seriously. I saw what my friend went through during this and how it affected him. In my head I know that this really isn't my business. It isn't my problem or anything for me to be concerned with, but I can't help it. I can't seem to let this one go...

Friday, September 23, 2011

Officially Fall

I know I made a post a few days ago about how excited I was that Fall was beginning to creep in. 

Well, happy day today, it's OFFICIALLY the first day of Fall.

This is definitely my favorite time of year. 

And these are a few things I plan to do the in the next few months...

1. Find a super-cute Halloween costume

2. Visit the Corn Maze again this year

3. Make hot chocolate on cool, rainy days

4. Take some great Fall photos

5. Carve pumpkins

6. Make Halloween candy

7. Find colorful fall leaves

8. Take afternoon walks in the cool weather

9. Wear my favorite hoodie

And....again...more pictures to make you smile...

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I truly think that Fall is my absolute favorite time of year.

I love when the weather becomes just cool enough to need some sleeves.

I love being able to leave the patio door open and feel a cool breeze.

I love the colors of Fall.

So, I thought I would share some of my favorite photos of fall.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

30 Days of Truth: Day 3

Day 3: Something You Have to Forgive Yourself For

Ooooo...this is a hard one for me. I usually hold myself up to a very high standard, in my job, my relationships, my hobbies, all areas of my life. And, then, when things don't go the way that I plan or expect, I tend to hold it against myself, for whatever reason. Sometimes I'm more able to let go of these things, other times I hold onto them and harbor on them for vast amounts of time; years even!

There is one specific thing I will eventually have to forgive myself for. Although I can't allow myself to go into great detail here on my blog, I will say that something major happened about two and a half years ago, and although nothing was permanently affected by my actions, I still regret them to this day. I still think about this one particular period of time on a regular basis, and I can't seem to let it go and forget about it. I hold it over my own head and always go back to this memory, and I always hate myself for a little while whenever I think about it. 

Some days now, it's easier to look back on this time as a learning experience. I know myself a little better because of this memory. I understand my own thought process and rational a little better. I'm definitely ten times happier than I was then, so maybe it is time for me to forgive myself and move on....

Thursday, September 15, 2011

30 Days of Truth: Day 2

Day 2: Something You Love About Yourself

Let's see, something I love about myself. Most of the time I'm a pretty happy person. There are actually several things I like about myself. But, something I LOVE about, that a little more difficult.

I like that I'm a pretty likable person. I like that I'm smart. I like that I am a determined. I like that I am pretty good a random trivia. I like that I'm left-handed. I like that I enjoy time alone. I like that I'm a little nerdy sometimes. I like that I have a wonderful husband and an amazing little boring life.

But, I do LOVE that I am always willing to try something new. I love doing new things. I love being adventurous. I love finding interesting little outings to go on, especially with my husband. While our life together may be boring a lot of the time because of work and school and all the other aspects of life that have to be taken care of, when we have the opportunity to go somewhere new, or to try a new restaurant, something new and interesting ALWAYS means something fun! And this, is something about myself and my life that I absolutely LOVE!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Not a 9/11 Post

I was going to post something else today, then I realized what day it is.

I'm not writing a 9/11 post, as there are plenty more everywhere else today. But I kinda feel guilty for posting anything else on this monumental day.

So, this is it for today.

Back to the normal foolishness tomorrow.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Twitter Party Thursday

For the Love of Blogs does a great twitter hop. 


Hop on over and participate!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

30 Days of Truth

Since I'm making an attempt to jump back on the blogger train I thought it might help to have some sort of plan.  One of the problems I always seem to encounter is a lack of ideas to write about, or I simply get bored with the idea I do have.

So, I thought to myself, "Self...why not plan ahead. Come up with some sort of schedule and plan for what you want to write about."

Now, here I am...attempting something new.

I know I'll never actually finish this in 30 consecutive days, but as long as I have something to guide me as I jump back into the blogosphere, I think I'll be ok.

So, here I am....starting the 30 Days of Truth.

Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself 

Let's see...something I hate about myself....

I know for sure that I hate the fact that I am not AT ALL organized. I have a job that demands organization. I have a husband that is more disorganized than I am, and he has no desire to become more organized. I constantly lose things or I have to go back and spend more time looking for something I can't find.

I have tried to fix this hundreds of times. I constantly buy organizers and planners with the best of intentions, but usually after a month (at most) they are cast aside into the abyss where all attempts at organization go to die.

So, if you have any tips, ideas, or suggestions to improve this part of my life...I'm completely open!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Man...I miss blogging

Oh my gosh! I miss blogging so so so much. I know, I know, I do this ever so often. I get out of the habit, then I make a post about how much I miss it, and I promise myself to get back in the habit, and then its another three months before I make a decent post.

But, this time I'm being optimistic. Its the time of year when things seem to slow down a little bit for me. I'm currently making the effort to do a little remodeling around this little space of the web, so hopefully too many people haven't abandoned me in the last several months. And for those of you who are still around...thanks for not giving up on me. I'm still here!